Listen to Your Body

I was very proud of myself today. I rode my bike further, almost double the distance. Then my body started complaining a little. I was back in front of my house and I could feel that my legs were tired and I was getting thirsty. I decided I could go a little bit more and then stop. Stupid ass that I am, I wasn't listening to my body telling me to stop right then. I told my left leg that the weakness it feels in trying to be the starting peddler indicates that it needs to do just that and then we can go home. Like I said...Stupid Ass. My left leg complied and was able to make it up the height to the pedal so it can start the bike on its way...well, the rest of my body was apparently helping by leaning the bike a little to the left, which I didn't exactly notice caused the handle bars to also lean to the left. So, naturally, the bike went left and I was unable to pull it back. Those of you who have similar balance issues as me will immediately understand...once balance is compromised, there is no getting it back with MS related issues. Down I went. I felt really stupid and hope that no one saw me. I got up, went home, and rested. I can hear my body saying "I told you so" repeatedly. My left thumb is now killing me...no doubt its way of screaming at me for allowing the bike to topple over on top of it. Sigh...hopefully I can ride again tomorrow. I will not ignore my body again.

Just Like Riding a Bike

Because my legs seem to be getting weaker, my doctor suggests excercise. So I wrode a bike today. I haven't been on a bike in over 15 years. It's true what they say...you never forget. You can, however, lose some sense of balance. I swerved a bit...okay, a lot. No big deal though. After a leg cramp, a seat adjustment, and lots of weird wobbling like a first timer, I made it around two blocks near my house. A total of 15-20 minutes. Felt pathetic, but I'm giving myself a break...baby steps. I will have to make a habit of it and get better. It felt good but I got tired. I will get better.

More than Street Value

So I got my approval; passed the backtround check. It cost $200 just to get the card saying I can purchase and carry the stuff. I dont know for sure yet, but from what I understand, it will cost more than it does on the street. Of course it's better, grown for special purposes.

My new pet peeve now is that health insurance won't cover it. I doubt I can even get reimbursed from my FSA, but I'll certainly try. I just don't understand why I can have all kinds of drugs that will make me high, dopey, you name it...steroids, uppers, downers, what have you...but I can't have a simple weed that God gave us to help with what ails us. It's ludicrous! I hope this changes soon. I mean what about people that can't afford it? How long will I be able to afford it?

New Jersey Rules

Like most people who are annoyed by marijuana laws, I am jealous of people who live in Colorado right now. However, since I have no intention of moving there any time soon, I have to live by the laws of the state I live in now…New Jersey. Some of you may be aware that New Jersey has some of the strictest medical marijuana laws of all the states that allow it, but unlike what I thought it would be, it isn’t a bad system. It actually makes sense to me…and that is saying a lot! The system is set up to make sure people don’t run amok with it. Centers need to get a license first of all. That makes sense. I mean, I don’t want just anyone to sell me the stuff…there are a lot of different blends and types that are for specific needs; I am glad that the people selling it know their stuff. Otherwise, it’s just pot…not really medical marijuana…there is a difference. The next regulation is that doctors need to sign up with the state’s regulation office, thereby making sure no one can forge prescriptions or whatever…I’m not sure why this is the case, but it doesn’t bother me. Patients that want to get it can view the list of doctors that are signed up to make sure their doctor is one that can give it to them. Next…patients must be seeing that doctor for a year before that doctor can sign them up. That makes sense on multiple levels really. Doctors would get overwhelmed with new patients if it were easier for them to give it out. After the year is up, the doctor puts the patient on the system and gives him/her a registration number. Finally, the patient registers and gives personal information so they can do a background check. Once that is done, he/she gets a card allowing the purchase of the marijuana and the center they registered with. So, that’s where I stand…registered and waiting to pass the background check. I am going to try it at night to help me sleep and I am going to monitor other benefits and affects as they happen. As always, stay tuned…

Meds Revisited

So, my experiment to go off most of my meds has shown its first sign that it isn’t

working. The first sign of it can be seen right here by looking at how long it’s been

since I’ve written anything and the topic of what I wrote. Yes, technically, winter is

over so I am finally coming out of the winter blues. However, I found that the tea and

vitamins were not enough to combat my MS fatigue. So now, before my work suffers

any more, I am going back on the anti-fatigue medicine Provigil. I don’t really like it,

but I need something while I am still working so there it is.

         Of course, Provigil always made me unable to sleep…so, hopefully before that gets

out of control next, I am going to try the medical marijuana to help me relax and

sleep at night. We’ll see how that goes in time…stay tuned.