More than Street Value

So I got my approval; passed the backtround check. It cost $200 just to get the card saying I can purchase and carry the stuff. I dont know for sure yet, but from what I understand, it will cost more than it does on the street. Of course it's better, grown for special purposes.

My new pet peeve now is that health insurance won't cover it. I doubt I can even get reimbursed from my FSA, but I'll certainly try. I just don't understand why I can have all kinds of drugs that will make me high, dopey, you name it...steroids, uppers, downers, what have you...but I can't have a simple weed that God gave us to help with what ails us. It's ludicrous! I hope this changes soon. I mean what about people that can't afford it? How long will I be able to afford it?

New Jersey Rules

Like most people who are annoyed by marijuana laws, I am jealous of people who live in Colorado right now. However, since I have no intention of moving there any time soon, I have to live by the laws of the state I live in now…New Jersey. Some of you may be aware that New Jersey has some of the strictest medical marijuana laws of all the states that allow it, but unlike what I thought it would be, it isn’t a bad system. It actually makes sense to me…and that is saying a lot! The system is set up to make sure people don’t run amok with it. Centers need to get a license first of all. That makes sense. I mean, I don’t want just anyone to sell me the stuff…there are a lot of different blends and types that are for specific needs; I am glad that the people selling it know their stuff. Otherwise, it’s just pot…not really medical marijuana…there is a difference. The next regulation is that doctors need to sign up with the state’s regulation office, thereby making sure no one can forge prescriptions or whatever…I’m not sure why this is the case, but it doesn’t bother me. Patients that want to get it can view the list of doctors that are signed up to make sure their doctor is one that can give it to them. Next…patients must be seeing that doctor for a year before that doctor can sign them up. That makes sense on multiple levels really. Doctors would get overwhelmed with new patients if it were easier for them to give it out. After the year is up, the doctor puts the patient on the system and gives him/her a registration number. Finally, the patient registers and gives personal information so they can do a background check. Once that is done, he/she gets a card allowing the purchase of the marijuana and the center they registered with. So, that’s where I stand…registered and waiting to pass the background check. I am going to try it at night to help me sleep and I am going to monitor other benefits and affects as they happen. As always, stay tuned…

Meds Revisited

So, my experiment to go off most of my meds has shown its first sign that it isn’t

working. The first sign of it can be seen right here by looking at how long it’s been

since I’ve written anything and the topic of what I wrote. Yes, technically, winter is

over so I am finally coming out of the winter blues. However, I found that the tea and

vitamins were not enough to combat my MS fatigue. So now, before my work suffers

any more, I am going back on the anti-fatigue medicine Provigil. I don’t really like it,

but I need something while I am still working so there it is.

         Of course, Provigil always made me unable to sleep…so, hopefully before that gets

out of control next, I am going to try the medical marijuana to help me relax and

sleep at night. We’ll see how that goes in time…stay tuned.

Winter Blues

As the sky darkens, so does my mood. The clock says it's not much past noon yet I feel it must be close to midnight. The closer the storm, the further my energy goes and the closer I get to deep slumber. Snow they say, but it surely won't be a bright happy snow or else I would no doubt be wide-eyed as a child in anticipation. No, this storm threatens to bury me deep inside myself until the thaw releases me from my chilly seclusion. Oh Mother Nature, I wish I could escape the shackles you keep tightened around my emotions.

New doctor, old problem

The most frustrating this in dealing with MS is going to primary care doctors. For a while, I had a good one and was happy as can be; I never wanted to go to a different  doctor. Unfortunately, he left the practice group I go to and went too far for me...so here I go again, breaking in a new guy.
     I was feeling run-down and a little congested, so I figured I should go and see if there was something the doc could give me. My shoulder was also hurting for a few weeks, so I figured I should ask if it could be related, you know, a cold or something settling in my shoulder/arm muscle. Silly me...I shouldn't even have mentioned it.
     He went through all the silly questions that cannot be answered by an MS patient without a certain degree of uncertainty..."do you feel numb or tingling in your arm or fingers?"--UMMMMM yeah...all the time...I have MS. "Does it come and go or is it always numb?"--Yes. LOL...and similar things that he doesn't understand is completely irrelevant and will not help him figure out what is wrong. Sigh...I know I have to do it, but this guy better last a while, I hate doing this all the time. Maybe when I get the medical marijuana, I'll get stoned before I see him and see what he thinks then. That will be fun.